Writing gently feeds my soul.
I'm still here, blogging, and this time it feels a little more personal. Thank you for visiting this space and reading my reflections. I hope you find peace here, maybe even a friend from out of nowhere.
Earlier today, I was clearing out some old files on my phone, intending to delete a few photos, when I stumbled upon a picture of a letter I wrote during a time I felt completely lost. Those were heavy days—full of dreams, visions, and hopes, until life interrupted them. But you know, I’m grateful that God never answered to my prayers. It was in the midst of all that chaos that I finally heard what God had been whispering to me all along, leading me back to writing. If those dreams had come true, I might not be here now, finding solace in this.
Deep breath... life is simple, beautiful, and even whimsical when you learn to be content and live one day at a time. When you rely on His grace and surrender to His plans, everything aligns with His will. You start letting go of things that won't matter six feet under. You stop seeking validation, and instead, you learn to appreciate the simplicity and complexity of life, even through suffering. And slowly, you embrace the changes happening around you.
I just love the clouds and the vast sky.
I used to feel purposeless because I tied my worth to what I was doing. When I wasn’t accomplishing anything, I felt completely meaningless. It was foolish of me not to realize that I am loved—period. God's love isn't conditional; He doesn't force us to earn it by doing things for Him. His love goes deep, right into the core of who we are. What He truly desires is a relationship with us—one that grows over time, one where we walk alongside Him in intimacy.
God wants us to experience the fullness of life, and it’s through Jesus Christ that we find that satisfaction.
So there she goes again with her pink uniform.
Lately, I’ve been learning to take care of my skin and dabble in simple makeup. It's late for me to be picking up these things, but I’m enjoying it. Funny, isn’t it? An introvert facing hundreds of students every day, yet needing to recharge after the week ends. I’m becoming more comfortable around new people, and learning so much from this profession. Teaching is showing me life from new angles and helping me hear new stories. Although writing fuels my soul, teaching allows me to understand life better.
My nephew keeps growing, and I just love him for who he is. All he wants is a happy, complete family. When I teach, I realize most kids just want the same—more than toys or gadgets, they long to be loved, seen, and feel special. I remember one student who never wanted to use crayons because, for him, life was sad without a dad. Heartbreaking, right? So many children carry frustrations because they haven’t felt loved. Let’s keep praying for homes that are safe and nurturing for these little souls.
Life goes on.
I remember when I first started in Children’s Ministry, crying to God because I felt so alone and ineffective. I couldn’t see any fruit from my work. I was young and inexperienced, convinced I was doing the least important work in the ministry. But I’ve learned there’s no greater or lesser task when we do it for God with all our hearts. I never imagined years later, there would be people willing to teach and love kids just as they are.
Insert Jhaypee—he wasn’t around, but he’s still a great kuya to everyone! Shoutout to these pips!
Isn't it amazing how God works? We’re simply stewards of His blessings. So, to anyone feeling down in ministry right now, remember: it's God's kingdom, not yours. He’s in control. Don't get entitled when things are going well, and don’t despair when things seem fruitless. God is always working—on the ministry and on you.
And there they go,! We all feel pretty on this. No one cries during sharing sessions anymore; we’re all glowing and growing by His grace. I look forward to Sundays—fellowship feels freeing, and there’s peace in being with other believers.
There are still many "huhus" in life, and it has been a part of life because we are living in this broken world with so many broken people. Yet, God is there to restore us from our brokenness and sins, if we allow Him to. If we accept Jesus Christ as our savior and ask him to forgive our sins without looking back, He promises to give us eternal life. We are not meant for this world, not just for a lifetime, but for heaven and eternity with Jesus Christ. I hope you meet Him around the corner.
Go on open your Bible, pray and know Him more. Without an intimate relationship with Him, you will miss what He wants to do in and through your life.
Have you seen the one my soul loves?
I’ve been feeling a bit lonely lately, though that might just be my period talking, haha! But then I read a verse in Song of Solomon, and it made my heart skip a beat. It’s like I was reading it for the first time. It's the question I’ve always asked God: "Have you seen the one my soul loves?" Is he tall, clean, and does he smell good? (Char!) But really—Is he a man after Your own heart?
That verse hit me hard: "When I found the one my soul loves, I held him and would not let him go until I brought him into my mother's house." Admit it, that’s better than any movie line—even Nicholas Sparks can’t top it!
Life isn’t perfect, but we have a perfect God to rely on.
My parents are still snoring away, and when I was a kid, I hated that sound. Now, it’s like a hymn I never want to stop hearing—it reminds me they’re still here with me. Though life has been tough for all of us, I understand why my father gets upset when we don’t sit together at our small dining table. Those moments might not come around again, so I cherish every second.
As we get older, everything becomes more precious because we know time won’t stand still. Moments and memories are fleeting. But I’m learning to be grateful for what I have, knowing I came from nothing and will return to nothing.
So take joy, my friends, and let it be okay to cry when life gets overwhelming. Grieve when you're lost or when you've lost someone. Love deeply when the time is right. Forgive so it doesn't hurt you anymore. Leave when it’s time to explore new spaces, and jump when faith calls you to take that leap. Time doesn’t wait for us, so whatever you do, do it for His glory.
I’ve been sharing excerpts from my writing on TikTok, and even though I may not always be faithful, I can clearly see God's unwavering faithfulness in this space. His love extends to each and every one of us, and my hope is that whenever you visit, you’ll find a moment to quiet your soul from whatever storms rage within. God truly is our safest haven. To Him be all the glory.
Goodnightyyy my journal buddies out there!
