Have you ever felt like you're missing out on so many things? Do you feel like you're moving slower than everyone else?
We live in a world where it’s so much easier to see other people's progress—it’s like opening a window and hearing celebrations, seeing success stories, proposals, and countless other moments of joy.
Today was supposed to be a happy day. I had a short chitchat with the youth and enjoyed a simple fellowship. Afterwards, I went to the mall to buy a new charger because mine broke. The weather was so cold—the kind that makes you want to curl up and sleep deeply after a long, exhausting week. But despite all the things I managed to accomplish, there’s still so much left to do. Then, out of nowhere, a little ache crept in. I couldn’t pinpoint its source—I just felt lonely. Maybe the weather had something to do with it.
In that moment, a thought turned into a prayer:
“Lord, fill this emptiness with Your love. May Your love satisfy me more than the cravings I feel from the world. Help me to know and understand Your love more deeply each day.”
It happens every month, especially when I’m about to have my period. It’s strange—I know it’s coming, yet it still hits me. I get so lonely during these times. (only ladies will understand)
On my way home, I saw a boy getting drenched in the rain as he rescued a little cat. I smiled. Suddenly, I felt loved. It reminded me of how God does the same for us every day.
Whenever we sink into deep waters, whenever we feel lost, lonely, or hurt, His arms are always wide open and strong enough to hold us. He lets us know that He truly cares, welcomes our feelings, and reassures us that He understands.
Sometimes, we don’t need words. We just need someone’s presence to remind us that we are never alone and that we are deeply loved. And God is constantly present. He’s always there. His love is real and perfect.
Yesterday, I found myself reflecting on the past years. I am grateful for the present moments—for being here, for overcoming hard times I thought I couldn’t survive, for seeing new things and growing in faith. I’m learning to leave the past behind and strive toward the future. I’ve realized that He truly is a good, good Father. His plans are always good and beautiful for those who are called according to His purpose.
Sometimes, we over-spiritualize everything, waiting for great signs or miracles to confirm God’s will for our lives. But it’s simpler than that: it’s about seeking His kingdom first, allowing Him to love us, and walking in faithfulness.
I’ve made so many foolish decisions in the past. Every year, I like to think I’ve grown wiser, becoming less foolish than before. Yet, I know that on my own strength, I am still prone to foolishness. I am thankful for His Word, which continually gives me wisdom and guidance. Even so, seeking Him first and walking by faith remains one of the hardest things to do as a believer. Why? Because we are so restless to know what tomorrow holds before we fully commit to following Him.
Will my job support me as I grow old?
Will I find someone to grow with?
Will I find fulfillment and contentment while walking the path He has prepared?
Is this path even safe enough to take?
I was struck by a passage I read recently:
"We want perfect fulfillment. Many of us have had it so good that we’ve started looking for heaven on earth. We’ve lost any sense of being pilgrims, and because of that, we’re less fruitful and less faithful than we ought to be. Most of us would be more fulfilled if we didn’t fixate on fulfillment quite so much."
It hit me hard because I realized that whenever I feel empty, it’s often due to my misplaced pursuit of fulfillment.
I seek fulfillment from a thriving career, so when I feel stuck and stagnant, I feel less fulfilled.
I seek fulfillment in finding the right person, so when I realize someone isn’t meant for me, I feel less fulfilled.
I seek fulfillment from my accomplishments, so when I’m not achieving anything, I feel less fulfilled.
We want perfect careers, perfect ministries, perfect relationships, perfect people, and perfect lives. We’re searching for heaven on earth—but it won’t ever come.
Take Esther, for example. She didn’t spend weeks or months trying to discern God’s will for her life before she acted. She simply did what was right and moved forward, trusting God. If the king extended his golden scepter, she praised the Lord. If he didn’t, she died. Esther showed more courage than most of us today.
Many of us—myself included—are passive and afraid. We don’t take risks for God because we’re obsessed with safety, security, and, most of all, the future.
But we don’t need to know the future to walk boldly. Instead of waiting for God to reveal every detail, we should look to His character and promises. That’s where our confidence should come from.
We walk by faith, not by sight. We take risks for His name, not because the future is known to us, but because it is known to God. And that’s all we need to know.
Worrying about the future isn’t just a harmless habit—it’s a form of unbelief. It reveals that our hearts are not fully resting in the promises of God.
So today, I choose to trust. I choose to walk by faith, knowing that He holds my future in His hands. And I can sleep peacefully under the cold rain.
Let’s hold on to this truth from 2 Corinthians 5:7: “We live by faith, not by sight.” May we trust God’s plans, even when the path ahead isn’t clear. Goodnightyyyyyyy!
